Waaah!

Disclaimer (or something like one): I apologize from the beginning for the whining quality this post is going to have. I really do appreciate the fact that class is over (for a week)<---(see! its already started!) and that the weather is beautiful (down here) and that my roommate and friends here (that I won't see for 3.5 months) are wonderful and that I get to go to Mexico for nearly a month (for another semester's worth of school work).

Aaaaaaaahhhhhh! I don't WANT to go back yet, and the thing is, I can pretend like I'm all done with school and excited and shit, but I really do have another semester's worth of school work (that I HAVE to get in A in) coming at me. I just want to work, dance, and do 'Cabaret' (written with a very large question mark---?---) this summer and come back. I like it here, and though I DO miss my friends from home, so basically, all you guys, I've come so used to talking to you on the phone and getting to see you during breaks without having to see people from "C-town" *mini-cringe* I didn't care to see, and now, I'm going to get thrown back into the small town mindset, and I'm going to fit like a hmm... 'square' seems to be the wrong term here... like a hexagon in a circle- or several, for that matter, and its going to hurt, (SERiously- ;) ) and people will think I've "gotten weird" (aka open-minded) from being at the U and ahhhh!!!! I'm not ready for that. And I made GOOD friends, not just aquaintances with everyone cuz I HAD to, and I like them, and I won't get to see most of them next year either because of this wretchedly (wow, reading WAY to much Shakespeare) large campus. *sad face*

And I understand, even appreciate, social drinkers- there is nothing wrong with sitting down at the end of the day and having a beer or a glass of wine to relax- it's not bad for you, in fact its supposed to be GOOD for you- but WHY take it to a humiliating extreme? Why embarrass (hm, as I spell this wrong...?) themselves like that? I'm sorry, but unless you were born a lesbian, I'd rather not see your tongue down another girl's throat while horny, would-be-12 y.o.- boys-if-they-hadn't-been-born-18-years-ago look on. Ahhhh!!! What am I going to DO at home? I mean, seriously, I'll probably just keep to my few friends and family when I'm not working, cuz everyone else (most of whom I don't want to see) will just get together to get COMPLETELY wasted for lame "Reunion/Summer Break" bonfires, anyway. I'm sorry, and I know this makes me "weird" or a dork or "square" (or even "hexagonal" *gasp!*) or whatever you'd like to call it, but I'll take "Hamlet" at the Guthrie or the seeing the James Sewell Ballet or having discussions about religion and life and the future over drinking I-will-soon-have-no-liver-ade in someone's muddy, smells-like-ass backyard anyday. Sadly enough, the amount of alcohol drank each night per person probably costs as much as a ticket to the Guthrie or State theatres, anyway.

Alright, One Final Vent- everyone has their vices, but why does everyone insist on having the SAME ones??? And I KNOW this isn't the only reason, so don't feel the need to freak out on me in their defense, I realize a lot of people (or most) do whatever for their own enjoyment, regardless of how bad it is for them in the long run, but why to people feel they need to binge drink/do drugs/fuck everybody in order to rebel?- Seriously? I don't understand. Look at the statistics. They are simply making themselves JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. Sorry, this is just a question that I feel I must be being somewhat closed-minded about, cuz I can't find an answer, so I'd appreciate any response. But yes, just thought I'd mention it.

All right, vent done. I love you. :D